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Thesedays, I connot help but thinking about him. But, I HAVE TO STUDY to entrance exam!!!!! What should I do?? He is 185cm, and I'm 152cm. He is very tall! He belonged to a volleyball team, and me is an orchestra club. He goes to the public school, and me is the girl's school. The day when we first met is during summer vacation at jyuku. It's on Tuesday. When I was making a trouble to carry my bike, He said , "I'll carry your bike instead of you. Stay here!" I was very upset! Probably, This was the first time contact with a boy in 3 years! So, I couldn't speak naturaly.(How embarrassing!) From then, He sits near me at classroom, and we often chat by paper , e-mail or small voice. Once, (its very very suprising thing) he hold my hand!!!! At classroom!!!!WHY???? I cant understand. What is our relation?? But I dont feel bad. WHY?? I cant understand me, too! I think I like him or something. Now,one month passed from that, I'm calm down, maybe. I want to concentrate on only studing. My score of World History and Earth Science is soooooo bad. and math....? hmmm....no, but EVERYTHING!!!! I must forget him!!!!!! But to tell the truth, I cant...